It's getting better

When I used to work at Petro, I decided that I couldn't be with a guy that was gone all the time.  I'm the type of person that needs to see or be with my significant other kind of a lot.  I'll admit it, I'm a little needy in that respect.  The good thing on my part is I found someone who is the exact same way.  Ok so that was decided...not fast forward to a few years ago.  Grant was unhappy with his job even though he was home every night.  He asked me what I thought about it, and my only hangup was that he could be gone for days at a time every week.  Home every weekend, holidays off, and during the summer he could have Friday's off too...but he could be gone from Monday through Friday, or at least Monday through Wednesday.  I had a hard time with it because I'd be the "primary" parent for the girls.  Now I don't say primary as in more important...but just I'm doing most of the parenting.  But the job would be a huge boost for us financially.  When it came down to it, our family is the most important thing in our lives so we decided he'd go for it.  I wont lie, it's been hard.  It was a big adjustment.  I was still working when he switched, so I had to really step up.  My days would go like this:  I'd get up for work, shower and get dressed, get the girls up, dressed, and fed, take them to daycare, go to work, work from 830-530, pick up the girls from daycare, get home and make supper, get the girls in the bath, have playtime, do bedtime with them, stay up for a few more hours then I go to bed.  After a few days, it gets hard to be the only one there for the girls.  When Grant gets home, he's tired and I cant really pawn the girls off on him because he needs some relaxing time too.  It was a really tricky road.  It got easier, especially after I stopped working.  But I still had a hard time with him gone because I missed him and I don't get a lot of "me" time.  Little frustrations would get to me, and I'd get really focused on doing things right.  But I've started to turn my thinking around.  Instead of worrying so much about their TV/movie time, what we're going to have for supper, are they brushing their teeth right, how many times I have to pick up the house...ect, I started really just enjoying the time I have with them.  It's only a few years before Izzy starts school and I wont have unlimited time with her.  Little things still get to me once in a while, but I'm really enjoying my time and we're so much happier!