I did something.
Something that I haven't even wanted to do in a long time.
I bought two new bikinis. That's right, Two. Bikinis.
The last swimsuit I bought was one that was a two piece, but it had a piece of fabric covering my stomach. That was like 90% of the reason that I bought it. I wanted something that would cover my baby pooch. Don't get me wrong, I really like that swimsuit. The bottoms are one of my favorite ones that I have. Here's what it looked like on me:
But I no longer feel like I have to cover up my midsection. I have worked super hard. I have had many, many backslides. I have had tears. I have had triumphs, but I am finally at a place where I like what I see when I look in the mirror.
I used to look and see only the muffin tops above my jeans. I just couldn't see passed them. But now when I get dressed for the day, I don't see them anymore. Now I see a smoother waistline, and that makes me super happy. Granted, I probably will never be fully comfortable in my own skin, but I have taken a huge step forward! Buying these suits is a big step, and one that I take damn near dancing a jig!
It was, and still is, hard work. Having to watch how much I eat is super tough for me. I have been eating wayyyy more than I should be for many years. It won't just change overnight. But I've been doing good. When I started really working on myself, I weighed roughly 150lbs (and on my 5'4'' frame that was kinda big). I just weighed myself and now I'm down to 133lbs. You guys, I haven't been that low in a REALLY long time!!
It's going to take a lot more work and motivation and will power and self disciple, but man let me tell you! Looking at these pictures sure gets me motivated to keep it up until I no longer have to eat as much as humanly possible!!
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